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Saturday, May 27, 2017
Saturday, May 6, 2017
Wallowing in pity?
Many and possibly all victims of abuse are told you are wallowing in your pity. Many of us victims of abuse hear this, when we share our pain with those who have not been abused. They couldn't possibly understand. A person who has never had to go without could never relate to someone who has had to endure starvation. A person who is always admired could never understand what it's like to be the object hatred.
This is how we heal from such pain, sharing our experiences. It's like an infection or poison that has to come out in order for us to heal completely. Wicked people find many cruel ways to torture and abuse us. Some are outright brutal who beat your outer man (and woman) others like to be less obvious to others and brutalize your inner man (and woman). No matter the method the roots are the same it's evil at its core. I recommend if you have no one to tell your pain to get a journal, a notebook just start writing it down and keep it well hidden. If you are still in the clutches of your abuser concentrate on getting out first or you'll just keep getting more material to write about. The poison must come out or it will consume you. I believe that's truly what the Bible is referring to for the word "forgiveness". Many abusers have re-defined the word forgive to mean because you believe in Jesus you have to submit yourself to more abuse just turn that other cheek. Forgiveness is really a resolution or rather dissolution, such as divorce. If the situation is not going to change then for your safety and sanity you must remove yourself from that situation. Wicked people have no desire or plans to change it's you who have the problem not them. Against popular belief Jesus did NOT come to save all. Please understand there's a significant difference between wicked and your average sinner. You will also find wicked disguised as a Christian. The wicked love finding believers to abuse. They use God's word against us. They use God's word as a stumbling block. God will deal harshly on these individuals. Using God's words to hurt one of his children? As Mr. T says "I pity the fool."
Here's an example of abusers: think of your abuser as a poisonous snake. Once you've been bitten are you going to stick around and try to tame him love him and die trying? No!! You're going to first get help for the poison injected in your veins then get the heck away from him and never go back to where that nasty thing attacked you. They are poisonous snakes their intentions are to harm you and have no remorse for what they are doing to you and they never will. Jesus did not come to rescue Satan he came to defeat him and to rescue us.
I don't care if there's a hefty will hanging in the balance. How much money is your soul worth? Can you put a cash value on that? I got news for you the wicked save their last strike at you in their will. They write you out of their will. You're not getting a dime anyway. Sure you can fight it in court tie it up for years in court cost and attorney fees then to have Uncle Scam take nearly half of it possibly more. What's your time worth to you? What's your soul worth to you, your dignity? In the end they could make you as bitter as they are and become a monster like them.
I believe the word forgive means don't harbor the anger, pain and bitterness. When you go no contact be done with them you know they're not going to change. They're not going to have an epiphany one day and realize they were so cruel and wrong. You're part to forgive is to forget about them. I know with our minds being triggered by words, sights, sounds, and even smells; that's nearly impossible. When you divorce you never forget that other person unfortunately; but you move forward. You don't allow that horrible experience ruin the rest of your life. Don't see yourself as a victim but a survivor. Don't let the abuse defeat you!! That's what they wanted all along was to destroy you. Oh yes I know it's much easier to say than to do. The abuse has put you at the bottom of a well. The only way to survive is to claw your way back up. You're going to break a few nails and get mud under them. You're going to grab a slippery rock and fall back a few feet but you got to keep clawing your way out or you'll drown in the well. Don't wait for someone to come by and rescue you and throw you a rope they could show up too late. I pray that God gives each one of you a boost of strength and a shot of adrenaline to pull yourself up out of that well. You may lose a few friends and relatives in the process. They weren't true friends if they like you better trapped in the well. The same goes with family they are usually the first to abandon you when you assert the slightest bit of self confidence. No they always tell you they like the "old" doormat you and not the new and improved confident you. They prefer the You that was self conscious, not self confidence. I had one sibling in particular that told me this more than once when I started to feel good about the direction my life was going. She was on the edge of the well kicking me back down stomping my fingers when I reached for dry land. My friends keep clawing and climbing and fighting for your life. You are worth it and you matter to God our Father. I know your next thought is well why did he allow this to happen if he loves you so much? If God interfered with everything life would be perfect, boring, bland and vanilla. Not one of us would have a free will or choices. Nothing would die, cotton candy would grow on trees, skies filled with glitter and rainbows with unicorns flying around, no that's fantasy!! God sent his Son wax he born to royalty? Did he have a silver spoon in his mouth? Did he sleep on satin sheets, feather down pillows in a castle with servants to serve his every need???
No he was cursed at, spit on beaten and then executed for sins and crimes he did not commit. God wants us to love him or hate him but be true to our feelings. There are consequences to either choice. If you hate him well things are just going to get worse for you unfortunately. Your hatred for the one who created you, will devour you. If you love him life's still not going to be easy. The devil is on your heels trying to trip you up at every chance and loves to make you curse God for things Satan has done to you. Who do you think your abusers are working for, it's not God. A common misconception that I've heard many times is that we each existed before in heaven. That we were angels previously or little cherubs. There's no scripture to back up that nonsense. No, only Jesus; he is the only human who previously existed before this life on earth. We were created at the moment of conception at that first spark of life when the sperm and egg meet. It's just biology as to who you ended up with as parents. Because God loved you so much Satan wants to destroy you and often uses the very ones who brought us into this world to get the job done.
God Bless you all and keep fighting
Thank you for reading.
Tuesday, March 14, 2017
Where has being nice got us?
The Bible don't tell us to be "nice" or "love everybody". I believe that the church adopted their "nice" eastern philosophy from Hinduism thanks to the music group the Beatles. I can't stand them thankfully half of them have died but the damage is already been done. The church has discarded their bibles and settled for what sounds good instead of what's right. Their pastors led them down this road like the pied pipers that they are. Leading their sheep to slaughter.
I've been reading and thinking about Gideon's army of 300 in Judges 7, to fight the Amakalites (giants nephilium). Gideon started out with 32,000 and God told him he had too many soldiers. You'd think too many warriors is a good thing but Gods not looking for numbers but quality people sold out to him. Jesus said in Matthew 22:14, many are called but few are chosen. Think about that one for awhile.
Matthew 7:13
Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.
It's a harder path to stand up for truth even if it's just your own truth. It's much easier to go along with the crowd compromise. Compromise another word not found in the Bible.
God don't need "nice" he needs warriors. There's enough useless nice so called Christians who can't fight their way out of a paper box.
We need to take up the sword of authority that Jesus or Yeshua has given to or anointed us with, put on our armour of God and fight. We have been beat down and betrayed by those we trusted and loved. We see where love, forgiveness and nice got us.
Saturday, March 4, 2017
Pedophilia where's the church?
I'm sure by now you've all heard of Pizzagate. Most of us are sickened by it all and probably so tired of hearing about pizzagate. I'm not going to get into it here. All I want to know is where's the church in all this where's the outcry?? Please tell me one pastor who is upset and angered by this? All I hear is crickets. Could it be that the pastors know of these sick degenerate individuals in their congregation and are keeping quiet about their activities? Possibly even helping to cover their sins? Are the pastors even involved in this sick perversion? I can't say but it seems so very strange how silent the church has remained. Possibly the reality of pedophilia is so ugly they want to just put their head in the sand and pretend it don't exist. Well Virginia the truth is pedophilia does exist and it's a world wide problem. What do we do about it? I wish I knew; but what I do know is pretending it don't exist is only enabling the abusers to abuse. We have to keep talking about it keep the subject alive, expose this evil. Possibly the church just don't want unpleasant things to ruin their potlucks, fundraisers, rummage sales and etc. It seems that churches seem to close their eyes to unpleasantness until it happens to them. I witnessed how a local church reacted to a family who's little girl was abducted and murdered not sure if the pervert raped her or not the news didn't mention it at all. The local church was almost across the street from where the crime took place. You'd think if it happened that close to this church they'd take up a collection for the family. They were poor and could have used help right now, they are faced with burying their little girl and expenses of that. The church didn't even offer up a prayer for the family, nope all heads in the sand. No not a dime for the poor family who lost their child. We need to raise money for the pastors newest venture he needs a new jet so he can spread the gospel around the world!! I guess I shouldn't be surprised abuse don't get mentioned in church. They don't offer counseling, prayer or even sanctuary for the victim. No the abuser is probably a prominent member of the church we can't offend his wallet... oh I mean we can't offend him. This is so disgusting and repulsive I can only imagine how our Heavenly Father or Jesus feels about this. Well here's what Jesus said about it.
Matthew 25:34-40
34Then shall the King say unto them on his right hand, Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world: 35For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in: 36Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me. 37Then shall the righteous answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, and fed thee? or thirsty, and gave thee drink? 38When saw we thee a stranger, and took thee in? or naked, and clothed thee? 39Or when saw we thee sick, or in prison, and came unto thee? 40And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.
Now the church so pious at heart but too good to help a soul in need.
Matthew 25:41-46
41Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels: 42For I was an hungred, and ye gave me no meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me no drink: 43I was a stranger, and ye took me not in: naked, and ye clothed me not: sick, and in prison, and ye visited me not. 44Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee? 45Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me. 46And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal.
It's funny the church avoids this chapter in the Bible. It's seldom preached from the pulpit. No pastors want to tickle the ears if their congregation, feed them cotton candy glittery fairy tales about how to get rich if you support the pastor.
Sunday, January 22, 2017
God is abused too
Churches are a mess today. They have become social clubs of status and a den for the thieves. The problem is churches kicked God and Jesus out to the curb. Money is king to them but they abuse the name of Jesus and God. Church had become a social club pastors don't teach about right and wrong they pressure everyone to be NICE and FORGIVING basically making us doormats for all to walk on and wipe their dirty muddy shoes on. If a wounded person goes to church for healing they will encounter the opposite and find themselves abused again by being told to work things out forgive your oppressor and submitting yourself to further abuse. Then your abuser appeals to the congregation of your lack of forgiveness because you are not submitting to their abuse just abusing you more. Don't look toward the church for comfort from abuse or healing they just want you to shut up and get in line with all the other sheeple. They don't have time to deal with your issues. Yes and that's how they look at it as "your issues". They don't really care and compassion don't really exist in church. Reality issues are inconveniences, unpleasantness to the members and especially the pastor. That's why you get a flippant answer you just need to forgive them that oppress and abuse you. You are the one with the problem not your abuser. How do you think God feels he too has been discarded by the church. The same with Jesus they throw their names around so it sounds religious.
Pastors are not warning people of the end times preparing them spiritually for the hell that is to come. All sermons circle around to tithing they manage to turn nearly every message to tithing and lining their pockets. I've seen tv pastors turn absolutely every message about money in the end. But they treat God like a slot machine keep filling the machine and you will eventually cash in. God has been so abused by the church he's like us. Think about it so many claim they love him and shit all over his name. He's been slandered by the one behind the scenes, Satan. The greatest thing Satan did to fool the church into believing that he (Satan) don't exist he's just a myth. Therefore making them also think God may not be real either. There's no fire and brimstone in the pulpit. It should be hell is real, Satan is real and most certainly God is real. The Catholic Church keeps Jesus a baby and worships his earthly mother. The womb that brought him here. That's wrong on so many levels. Think about that one it's kinda like worshiping a tour bus that brought your favorite rockstar. I'm not saying Jesus is a rock star but I think you get the comparison. Jesus had to be birthed into this realm to interact with us. Just like I believe the antichrist will also have to be birthed into this realm to interact with us. Back to the abusing God; when the pastors choose to get their tax exempt status 501(c)(3) they basically made a pact with the devil. They agreed to not teach on certain topics and agreed to not interfere with politics. God is non compromising God is truth and all that is good and just. God does not want fake lip service from the charlatans who call themselves Christians. They might as well worship the devil. If you want to know God you will earnestly have to seek him out he knows our hearts minds and intentions. He knows who's really for him and who is only providing lip service. Don't judge God on these fake people seek out the real God. Screw people and what they say talk is cheap look for actions and red flags. There's one thing I've learned recently is there are fewer TRUE believers than I had thought. I won't say Christians because that word has been misused and abused.
You think I'm picking on pastors? Think about this a moment. Unless you are living in a cave somewhere or never watch a video on YouTube, everyone is talking and investigating pizzagate and rings of pedophilia child trafficking brought to us by Wikileaks. Information gleaned from the Podesta brothers and Clinton emails. There's nothing that makes my blood boil than to see abuses of animals, humans but especially little children. Jesus warned woe to you that harms the little ones you'd be better off thrown into the sea with a millstone around your neck. You've heard the expression cement shoes and swimming with the fishes. That's pretty much the same thing. Well We know how Jesus feels about the subject what about the church? Where's the outrage?? What about pastors??? All I hear is crickets! Why? Could it be they're so wrapped up in their own lives they lack the empathy to care? You know what you hear from the pulpit? Don't judge! Why? Could it be they are involved in it too? They're definitely a part of the cover up. You may say just because they aren't talking about it don't mean they're covering it up. Well in my book child abuse of any kind is pretty black and white. There's no room for gray. There's no excuse to abuse a child and especially sexually. Theres absolutely no reason for an adult to use a child as their sex toy or punching bag. I guarantee that if all these mega church pastors with their millions, mansions and horsie ranches would just put 10% into putting a stop to this or even just using their influence to expose this evil it wouldn't exist.
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